I think I'll be a good ghost

tiamotiamo @ 2009-09-10T18:49:00

2009-09-10T22:48:55Z

So I've been back in CT for about a month now. I'm staying in Alex's parents house for now... I made a room in the attic, it's pretty nice... pink wood paneling everywhere.

He got a job today. Starts on Monday. I'm going to turn in an application tomorrow, things are looking good for that.
We're getting on our feet, saving up, and hopefully sometime around next May we'll be moving up to Montpelier, Vermont. My old roommate Stacie is moving up too, and we are going to open up a shop... things will be awesome.

Life isn't so bad here. A little awkward, a little boring... but over all it's pretty good.
My mom is giving me guilt trips about wanting to move away again... but I'm young, and I only have one life. I want to experience as much as I can.
She knows how to get to me, though. -_-

So this is this.

2009-03-06T00:18:39Z

Life has been frustrating me to no end recently. I never have enough money for food... I went to a soup kitchen this morning. I take the bus everywhere because I don't have any money for a car.
Alex is going to get sued by his landlady because he got fired in November and hasn't been able to find another job and hasn't paid rent for three months. He ate his last package of ramen today and officially has no more food, and I am ten dollars short for rent and have fifteen dollars to my name which isn't actually mine.
I don't understand why things don't work out for certain people, and work out excellently for others.

Oh yay!

2009-01-16T17:29:45Z

Kelley is moving to Virginia in a few days. It's going to be the best time of our lives!
She is going to be so much happier, being away from it all. The most amazing people I've ever met live in Lynchburg, Virginia and I know she will love them, really love them, and they will really truly love her too!!

Nothing could take away my happiness and excitement about this. I know it's the same for her, too. =D

tiamotiamo @ 2008-10-11T22:10:00

2008-10-12T02:09:35Z

A great way to solve problems:
Ignore them.

tiamotiamo @ 2008-09-30T23:23:00

2008-10-01T03:22:44Z

Come on skinny love just last the year

Pour a little salt we were never here

My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my

Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all

Cut out all the ropes and let me fall

My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my

Right in the moment this order's tall

I told you to be patient

I told you to be fine

I told you to be balanced

I told you to be kind

In the morning I'll be with you

But it will be a different "kind"

I'll be holding all the tickets

And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love what happened here

Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere

My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my

Sullen load is full; so slow on the split

I told you to be patient

I told you to be fine

I told you to be balanced

I told you to be kind

Now all your love is wasted?

Then who the hell was I?

Now I'm breaking at the britches

And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you?

Who will fight?

Who will fall far behind?

tiamotiamo @ 2007-12-04T20:23:00

2007-12-05T01:30:43Z

Life, you know?

I think I've run out of words. There are so many things happening inside my head and there's no way to tell you about them. I want to be in that peaceful place again.

Tonight we're putting up the christmas tree. It's going to be beautiful.

Tomorrow I'm going into work early to give blood. It will be beautiful.

Only 25 days until I go to Lynhcburg.

Only 9 days until my next paycheck.

No Meat Week started today.

2007-11-26T17:57:59Z

Can I make it?

tiamotiamo @ 2007-11-13T15:35:00

2007-11-13T20:47:39Z

I'm officially a walmart associate!

It's a great feeling. I work from 1-10 5 days of the week.

I'm going to be riiiich!

tiamotiamo @ 2007-11-10T15:30:00

2007-11-10T20:31:47Z

I stayed up all night and went all over southeastern connecticut with hundreds of teenagers.

tiamotiamo @ 2007-11-06T21:40:00

2007-11-07T02:46:22Z

=) Lovely.

tiamotiamo @ 2007-11-05T22:31:00

2007-11-06T03:36:32Z

I cooked and cleaned all day.

I wanted to make a nice dinner for my family, so I made homemade "autumn beef stew," biscuits from scratch, and a peach pie.

It all turned out well. I felt productive which was something I wanted to do.

I'm drinking tea now, because lately my allergies have been awful. Mom and Dad want me to have a tablespoon of local honey everyday. What else could I put a tablespoon of honey in? Suggestions?

Kelley, my best internet friend, lost her father last night to cancer. She's 17, and all around it's just a really sucky thing. Any prayers that you could send up for her, and her family... prayers for peace and comfort, would be the bomb.

Okay.

I want to go to bed but good songs keep coming on.

tiamotiamo @ 2007-06-19T18:00:00

2007-06-19T22:03:24Z

The good luck I have is one in a million. =D

<33

tiamotiamo @ 2007-05-07T21:51:00

2007-05-08T01:52:51Z

In my head, I make things out to be worse than they are, I think.

tiamotiamo @ 2007-05-05T23:24:00

2007-05-06T03:26:19Z

I definitely should have stayed in bed.

tiamotiamo @ 2007-04-06T23:31:00

2007-04-07T03:32:14Z

Should I be taken care of?

Maybe I have a false sense of entitlement.

tiamotiamo @ 2007-04-05T03:18:00

2007-04-05T08:42:39Z

the most important thing to me is making people feel better and i can't even do that.

meeeeeeehhhhh.

tiamotiamo @ 2007-03-07T22:37:00

2007-03-08T04:12:37Z

Alright. Let's start from the

Saturday morning I woke up at about 10:30 because I had EXCRUCIATING pain in my abdomin. So bad, mind you, that it was the worst pain I ever felt in my entire life. I sat in the cold bathtub (I guess I thought that would help?) for about 10 minutes and then tried to make my way to my Mom's door to tell her I needed help. I finally made it, collapsed in front of it and she came out, called Dad up and they took me to the emergency room.

After about twenty minutes I got out of the waiting room andinto an examination room. A nurse came in and gave me a hospital gown to change into. Little did I know it would be my only clothing choice for the next four days. A couple minutes after that an x-ray technician came in and saw me. I went for an x-ray and then came back and waited for a little while. Then, about an hour later we saw a doctor. He examined my abdomin and told me he thought it was probably my appendix. I was scared to death, I did not want to go in for surgery. I then went for a CT scan and a little later an ultrasound. The doctor came back to talk to me alone about my sexual history. I told him the truth; there is none. He said the reason he asked was because another thing that could cause my symptoms was an abscess on my ovary caused by an STD (I later found out they thought I had either Gonorrhea or Chlamydia. Ouch.)

Then the horror happened. A pelvic exam. I won't describe it, it's awful.

We hadn't really gotten any news for a while, the doctor finally came back in and said he had called a surgeon and a gynecologist. The gynecologist came first and did ANOTHER pelvic exam. It sucked. She that the reason they thought it might be an abscess on my ovary instead of my appendix was because it was very low for an appendix. But since I had no sexual history, and she had seen low appendix before she thought there was no chance of it being my ovary, in her opinion it was definitely my appendix. Maybe an hour later the surgeon came in and told me he was pretty sure it was my ovary. This is where the confusion began. He decided to admit me and see how I was the next day. By this time it was about 10:30pm and I had pretty much missed Megan's party (frown face). So twenty or so minutes later they took me up to a room, my parents went home to get a good night's sleep and I was left in a lonely dark hospital. Oh, and I was on morphine.

The next day my Dad left on a business trip to florida and my Mom came back at about 8:30 to hang out. I was on a strict no food or drink diet because they weren't sure if they were going to be operating. They had put me on some pretty intense antibiotics through my IV and also had IV fluid going in to keep me from dehydrating. Um, I basically just layed around all day. Mom was there for part of the time, and they moved me to another room... that was about all that really happened. The gynecologist came back and I think that was the day she told me my tests for Gonorrhea and Chlamydia came back negative. Nothing really to note happened. Ummm.

The next day I went in for another CT scan and another ultrasound. Dr. Casillas (my surgeon) told me I would be staying another night. My pain was subsiding and my abscess was shrinking, they were going to keep me on the IV antibiotics, because it seemed to be working.

The next day was more of nothing. A different gynecologist came in and told me that he thought it wasn't an abscess on my ovaries or appendcitis. He thought it was a hemorrhagic cyst, which I'm still not totally sure what that is. Oh, and I had been on a liquid diet. That night Dr. Casillas came in and told me I could eat. I was starvinggggg. It was amazing. He also said I would probably be going home the next morning. I was ecstatic. Ummmm...

It's really hard to remember everything that happened. But I basically still am a puzzle. I'm going back into Dr. Casillas' office to get some more exams, see how I'm coming along. They're going to see if they can figure it out. If it is appendicitis they'll treat the infection now, and take it out in about six months. I'm also going to the gynecologist later, and they will probably do a pelvic ultrasound, which means they'll stick a camera up my lady parts and see what's up.

I'm probably forgetting something, so that's all for now.

Thanks again for the prayers, and God bless you if you read all of that.

copy and pasted

2007-03-07T18:24:48Z

I'M HOME! They didn't do surgery because wherever the infection was it has been getting better with antibiotics. They still don't know what it is though, I'm a medical mystery. I 'm doing okay, but when I walk around or anything for too long I get the strangest headache I've ever had and start to feel nauseous.

They sent me home today because I'm getting better for the most part, I'm taking antibiotics four times a day and yeah.

I'll post a thread or something later. They had me on a clear liquids only diet for three days, yesterday I was on full liquids and got toast and crackers and last night they finally gave me real food. Needless to say I'm still starving and craving burritos, so I'm going to go have those.

Thank you sooo much for all your prayers and everything. I love you guys!

tiamotiamo @ 2007-03-04T21:16:00

2007-03-05T02:24:45Z

Hey everyone. This is Caitlin's boyfriend Alex posting on behalf of Caitlin. She's in the hospital right now, for an abscess on her appendix or on her ovary, they don't know which one yet. She'll be there for a few more days at least. She just wanted me to let you all know. If she gets any more information, I'm sure she'll make me post it. Prayers are welcome. :)

tiamotiamo @ 2007-02-23T13:52:00

2007-02-23T18:54:06Z

My future home.

tiamotiamo @ 2007-02-22T15:02:00

2007-02-22T20:10:58Z

I'm utterly sick and I'm going to camp tomorrow. This will be fun.

tiamotiamo @ 2007-02-20T18:31:00

2007-02-20T23:35:08Z

I was considering disappearing for a while.

tiamotiamo @ 2007-01-26T00:48:00

2007-01-26T05:49:50Z

I think I will start watching more movies.

tiamotiamo @ 2007-01-09T11:08:00

2007-01-09T17:46:18Z

I had strep which was lame. I also just yesterday got the antibiotics which is also lame. Oh well.

Alex came over, over new years. I guess that was a while ago. It was fun and I didn't want him to leave. It's tough never being able to see him.

I have a plan for my future that doesn't involve college. I'm happy about it.

It also involves moving closer to Alex.

Here's hoping all goes well.

Amanda's wedding is in February. I get to be a bridesmaid. And I get to go to New Mexico. This is an exciting time!

I'm also probably going to that Cornerstone festival in June.

I'm looking forward to the people, but not a bunch of bands I don't like being in one place.
=/

tiamotiamo @ 2006-12-13T13:41:00

2006-12-13T18:41:24Z

http://kevan.org/johari?name=caitortot